I had no idea that my passion became a problem
I had no idea that bullying can trigger disordered eating
I had no idea that my quest for health was making me sick
I had no idea that eating disorders don't discriminate
I had no idea that eating disorders are often overlooked or misdiagnosed
I had no idea that eating disorders are not just "a phrase"
I had no idea that the "perfect" images I see everyday are just digital illusions
For most of my adult life, I have either been anorexic (specifically hypergymnasia) or teetered on the line. Most everyone I'm close with already knows this without me ever having to say anything, but I feel like it's important for me to speak up about it. With all the success I have had in triathlon and other careers, I easily justified toxic behaviors and an unhealthy relationship with food.
Now is not the time for me to tell you all the details, what I want to tell you is that I am a survivor. I truly did not think I could change, that I was relegated to a toxic mindset and I was a prisoner to my own self-destructive patterns. And I would not have been able to start changing without help. I didn't know where or how to start, I just knew I was ready to change. Ready or not, without help and outside support, I don't know how it would be possible. Change this deep is profoundly challenging. But possible. There is hope. There is a way out.
If you or someone you know is suffering, please know there is help. Your health is serious and your life is meant to be lived, break free!
Out of all the statistics I could post here, the most important one is YOU. You are worth seeking help. If you need help finding it, I'm happy to help.